♥ The Girl
eVaNgELiNe :]
SAJC - ex-saint :P
♥♥SWEEEET EIGHTEEN♥♥
egg crack: 12th sept' 92!!!
work: Temp. at PricewaterhouseCoopers [PwC] & Dog walking [Anyone needs Dog walking Service? :)]
♥ people i love..
♥ DESIRES of the heart ♥♥♥♥
*Love God and love people<33
*CHRIST in the centre of my life.. not all about me..
*praise God to the ends of the world
*Learn DRIVING & the drummmms!!!!! & GUITAR
*Adidas shoes & Converse sneakers
*new slippers!! *new haversack bag!
*new clothes!
*sushi! >> love of my food life
*EXCEL in bowling!(forget it, a dream far away)
*GET INTO LOCAL UNI- Business/Psychology
*to cook & bake well
(in order not to forget them when the time actually comes, i shall pen them all down!=V=)after the A Level Examinations, i am goin to do all these! >>>>>
#MISSION TRIPS
#play pool!!
#Go overseas with my friends!! BACKPACKING-must
#Bake Bake Bake!! WHOOTS!
#go to SENTOSA!! volleyball! cycling!
#learn DANCING!! =DD
#learn water-skiing
#go and sleeover at different friends' houses! heh heh
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#learn DRUMMING & electric guitar & classical guitar
#go to places to cam shoot all day long!
#go to wild wild wet with friens!!
#stayover at chalet!
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#volunteer at christian youth organisations - to play captain's ball/tchouk ball/softball
#invite people for ICE CREAM at serangoon gardens!
#try new things.. bungee jumping?? heehee
#volunteer at SPCA/children's home
i admit i AM ambitious, but it starts with planning and aspirations to move on to GREAT things right.. hahas.. success is waiting.. cheesy ain't it.. =DDD
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I just woke up
I'm soooo exhausted.
URGH the horrors of A levels.
I have no idea why it's affecting me so much, the stress, the pressure...
the night before:
Dreamt that i got back my results. In my dream i felt soo bad, but that feeling, if i think about it now, it's irrational. felt unsettled and uncomfortable. [made me feel like that the whole day until i watch Disney Channel ~ 16 Wishes :P] okay anyways, in my dreams, most of the results were good, in fact way past expectations, but i totally ignored those and focused on the really bad one-GP. sighh, wasn't that i failed or anything, just felt.. really awful. the nagging feeling won't go away.. then i was called to watch like movie from a library computer screen, like it was supposed to be a whole class thing, when i went, there were like only 2 ppl :O yeah, and we could EAT in the library. how weird, the library was certainly different from my school real one but i knew it was the school library. strange and STRANGE. and alot of other disjointed dreams that seemed to link. everything must be very messy in my confused brain.
the most recent(morning i guess):
I dreamt that i was somewhere, then Anjney called saying that lit consultation was NOW! iwas far from school. consultation supposed to start at 10am, it was 10:20am :O scary! i panicked. no one told me the change in date! was lit consultation today ALR? somehow i appeared at school in like the next moment, i wasn't even prepared for lit consultation. I imagined the worst consequences, but Miss K merely said, arrange another date, just me and her. that was kinda a relief but then, it's like there were snide undertones to it.i was like maybe it's a good thing that i meet her one to one, then i'll dare to ask more boldly instead of in a big group. Then my dream transitted [frankly i dunno which came first anyway] i was kinda like in a hotel/chalet-ish setting. Isaac did something wrong, i brought him away to wash his hands, down the aisle, can't really remember details..... faith and me, together with a big group, going for a swim down a long stretch of water, to reach a destination of some mountain top? then i was hald-decided on whether i should change to contacts(what if it dropped out! i'll only start wearing a new pair after As, now still one week early-kinda) so weird, As like not over i'm like on some holiday. grrr strangee like x100000..
I guess i'm just feeling all stressed up over... my results and last 2 exams? i'll trusted it all into God's hands, or so i thought. dreams reflect an inner, unconscious being within me, am i still feeling hopeless? yes, econs paper 1 indeed made me feel super demoralized like i dun think i can write any good econs essay alr. but still, many ppl found it tough, why am i still so affected and keep thinking of those negative thoughts, everything is in good hands. but i feel so scared. argh how come i could surrender my all to God during Os, why am i like that. These dreams are distressing nd definitely tiring. i need to chill, be calm and STUDY!.. it will certainly affect me doin my last 2 papers to the best of my abilities. it's so easy to tell ppl dun worry after they have faced with difficult papers(bell curve to the rescue!) but so difficult to convince myself. grrrr...
STRUGGLES. Help Dear Lord. Help me to TRUST in You...
sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
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