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work: Temp. at PricewaterhouseCoopers [PwC] & Dog walking [Anyone needs Dog walking Service? :)]
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♥ DESIRES of the heart ♥♥♥♥
*Love God and love people<33
*CHRIST in the centre of my life.. not all about me..
*praise God to the ends of the world
*Learn DRIVING & the drummmms!!!!! & GUITAR
*Adidas shoes & Converse sneakers
*new slippers!! *new haversack bag!
*new clothes!
*sushi! >> love of my food life
*EXCEL in bowling!(forget it, a dream far away)
*GET INTO LOCAL UNI- Business/Psychology
*to cook & bake well
(in order not to forget them when the time actually comes, i shall pen them all down!=V=)after the A Level Examinations, i am goin to do all these! >>>>>
#MISSION TRIPS
#play pool!!
#Go overseas with my friends!! BACKPACKING-must
#Bake Bake Bake!! WHOOTS!
#go to SENTOSA!! volleyball! cycling!
#learn DANCING!! =DD
#learn water-skiing
#go and sleeover at different friends' houses! heh heh
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#learn DRUMMING & electric guitar & classical guitar
#go to places to cam shoot all day long!
#go to wild wild wet with friens!!
#stayover at chalet!
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#volunteer at christian youth organisations - to play captain's ball/tchouk ball/softball
#invite people for ICE CREAM at serangoon gardens!
#try new things.. bungee jumping?? heehee
#volunteer at SPCA/children's home
i admit i AM ambitious, but it starts with planning and aspirations to move on to GREAT things right.. hahas.. success is waiting.. cheesy ain't it.. =DDD
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With all my heart, I dedicate this to my Grandfather in Heaven…
What can I say? Where do I start? It’s been a whole 6 days since the demise of my Beloved Grandfather and I still need comfort, I still miss you O so much. There are just sooo many things I want to do with you Gong Gong. I wanted to go to China with you! I Wanted to experience a holiday with you! I wanted to spend more quality time with you Gong Gong! I couldn’t wait for the end of the A levels, and yet, I can’t now. Though I’m really happy that you’re in heaven now, safe in God’s hands, I still miss you and my heart’s greatest regret is still not being able to go to China with you, how I imagine it to be, it will never be. I still wanted to go to your house to visit you and Po Po and I wanted to drive you around despite the fact that you can already drive. I wanted you to be at my wedding, be there when I have my first child. I know all these are indeed impossible. I’m still grateful that you lived till a ripe old age and are surely still very much healthy! I really look up to you, your patience and sacrificial love towards people amazes me. It keeps me going. I know you wanted me to continue to study Chinese because it is important and certainly relevant in the future, I will not fail you, I’m going to do my very best in my Chinese paper and do you proud. I must do that much for you Gong Gong.
The evoked sense of loss cuts deep but somehow, the pain is lifted because I know that God is near. The assurance that you are looking down on me from above and awaiting my arrival comforts my grieving heart. God has faithfully shown His grace and mercy through this period and though the sense of loss still lingers, I have this heart filled with confidence and faith, knowing that You love me all the same.
I thank God for the peaceful and swift deliverance in the way that you left us. That you suffered no pain or agony when you departed brings us much consolation. Indeed, “If we are unfaithful, he remains faithful, for he cannot deny himself.” 2 Tim 2:13 for each and every one of us lacked the assurance that Gong Gong was safe in God’s hands. Uncle Michael prayed. I prayed. I believed the whole family prayed for God to show us that Gong Gong is really safe in His arms, to some extent, doubting that Gong Gong’s simple faith will grant him eternity in Heaven, we were wrong to be so faithless after the relentless prayers but God so compassionately showed us His assurance, that we need not fear. God showed to us, through different ways and methods, that He is with us and Gong Gong is safe in His hands. It is not by coincidence that Uncle Michael prayed for a sign and it was given. It was not by coincidence that Mummy prayed for assurance and it was given to her by the constant appearance of the number 18, Gong Gong’s name, the 18th of March, departing time 1844, and the constant appearing of the number 18. W.O.W. It is certainly not by coincidence that I felt that nagging feeling when I almost couldn’t make it for the last reunion dinner on the last day of CNY, then made the decision to just go. And not only that, it was not by coincidence that I sat beside Gong Gong and enjoyed the time wholeheartedly. Even before that night, I believe that God gave me so many opportunities to really just sit down with him just to talk. He shared with me about his past. How he came to Singapore and the things that he did. Yes, he was an amazing Grandfather, certainly not one whom memories will be forgotten. The little but thoughtful things that he has done for the family are indeed remarkable. He may be quiet but through his silence, he speaks volumes. From him, I have learnt humility, service and a heart to love others. A living example lived for me to witness, I am WOW-ed.
Honestly, I’m in awe of God’s timing. For these past 2 years, my family has been able to make for the New Year’s Eve dinner with my maternal family which we haven’t been able to for previous years because it always clashes with my paternal reunion. I’m glad we could, I’m sure Mummy was happy too. Also, I was THAT close to giving the last reunion dinner a miss because I was at camp and it was almost impossible for me to get out of camp. I’m sooo glad I did eventually with Mummy’s reminder that it was Gong Gong’s treat and that he was already getting older and older each year. I has this nagging feeling that I would really regret if this was indeed the last reunion dinner I ever had with him so I resolved to go. WOW. And indeed, though hard to believe, it was the last. I can’t emphasize how CLOSE I was to giving it a miss, taking such reunion dinners for granted. And that reunion dinner, I do not believe that it was by coincidence that I decided to take the seat right beside Gong Gong when I saw it vacant. [Usually, the children sit at one table while the adults sat at another] It was my first time ever that I sat beside Gong Gong during a reunion dinner as far as I can remember. I just had that yearning. I have no regrets. Thank You Lord. My heart was prepared slowly but surely by God. It was no coincidence that there was an increased number of wakes that I attended and attending them really made me aware of how time passes so quickly we should treasure our loved ones with the time we have NOW. I have learnt the importance of spending time with the family and not having any regrets because, if we haven’t realized, death happens unexpectedly and at any time at all. It just happens, at a blink of an eye, a snap of the finger. The time is NOW.
Oh, and talking about time, I’m really glad it happened in the midst of my Block Tests 1, surprising? No. It was the perfect time. It really challenged me to place my ultimate trust in God. Results can be good or bad, but most importantly, family ties are important. More important than results. Well, I believe that I will have a heart full of thankfulness even if this is the first time I fail all my exams and have to face the consequences, I’m ready. God will lead me through. When I come to the bridge, God will be there to hold my hand, I’m sure of that. God has assured us time and again, there is no need to fear or lose faith. Faith, is truly, believing in what we do not see. Words cannot describe the amount of comfort that washes over me each time I see Uncle Kee Ching, Auntie Wai Leng, Uncle Michael, Auntie Elsie, Auntie Jasmine, Uncle Keat Kheng, Timothy, Natalie and Samuel and not to mention my family. Each time I see us together, I feel like we CAN overcome, we WILL spur each other on towards the faith. I believe that God has chosen us as His people and so we will walk faithfully and cling on to the hope we profess. We MUST. It’s a consolation to see the bondage among us, the unity that we have that is so strong there is nothing we cannot overcome together. The power of WE.
Too amazed by God’s intervention I really have no words to express. On Monday, it was the day of my economics examination, but more importantly, it was the day that we collected Gong Gong’s ashes from Mandai Crematorium. I felt that I should go. I ended school at 10am. It was the least I could do because I loved Gong Gong Oh so much. Though Mummy and Daddy said it was going to be just the adults and I felt slightly guilty about not studying when my exams were just the next day. However, it was literature the next day and I believed my exam timetable was arranged in a way such that I was not stressed up by my Tuesday and Thursday paper, it being lit papers. So I still decided to go, though I may possible be the only child there, I felt that I should. I needed the closure. On the contrary, when we reached, I saw Tim there, and that was comforting, to know that he, like me, wanted to go. When we were picking Gong Gong’s bones, it was assuring to hear that Gong Gong was indeed still very much healthy. His bones were pure white, which is equivalent to a baby’s healthy bones. WOW. Gong Gong was so healthy, I’m glad he left us healthy and happy. The clouds at that time were looming, but no raindrop fell. As we left Mandai Crematorium heading towards Garden Of Remembrance, I noticed that we were moving out of the aread where the clouds were looming and into the area where the sun was brightly shining and the clouds were a bright white and the sky a beautiful blue. It was beautiful. It was like God’s comfort to me, that we come out of the darkness and into the light. “Mummy, look at the skies, it’s beautiful…” and somewhat symbolic from my point of view. I was amazed. Simple, yet impactful. When we reached the Garden of Remembrance, the weather was fine, we headed out of our cars and headed to where they put the ashes, Gong Gong’s niche. It started drizzling. While it was installed, we took photos, reminisce over the good old times and when all was done, we crowded in a circle around Gong Gong’s niche and began to sing three beautiful songs of praise unto God. Great is Thy Faithfulness, … and … Just as we began to sing, the rain grew heavier and heavier and with each verse we sang, there was great thunder and lightning we could hardly hear anything except our voices and the rain, coming down so hard onto the Earth, God opened the heavens unto us just as we were singing praise to Him and crying out our hearts’ desire to honour and worship Him through the grief that we bore. Heaven orchestrated the time of worship, it was magnificent and indeed spectacular and awe-inspiring. God had been there with us, and I believe that Gong Gong was also pleased with his children and grandchildren. The moments of worship touched each and every single one of us and filled us with the immense joy and reassurance to renew our faith and adoration unto His name. It was like His love poured down on us, I have never heard such loud thunder before and the amazing thing was that my uncle, standing nearest to the ledge, had not a single rain drop upon his head, all the rain we may have felt were on our feet, how could that be possible without a Mighty God who was there with us. Then we had a time of prayer where each of us really poured out what were on our minds and prayed and prayed. To me, that was inspirational, God’s hand is at work in each and every one of His children and He has chosen us, once lost and now found in His embrace..
Now that you’ve seen what I’ve gone through, surely, God’s work is that great, unlimited by anything on this earth, so, are you ready to trust that Great God, who loved us so much, He gave His Son as a sacrifice to atone for our sins. Are you ready to accept Him as your Lord and Saviour, He has done so much for our family I trust that He will do much in yours. The time is indeed NOW.
sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
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