pUre Purple Pure Black♥

eVaNgELiNe :]

SAJC - ex-saint :P

♥♥SWEEEET EIGHTEEN♥♥

egg crack: 12th sept' 92!!!

work: Temp. at PricewaterhouseCoopers [PwC] & Dog walking [Anyone needs Dog walking Service? :)]

♥♥♥♥♥ KALEO SERVE TEAM ♥♥♥♥♥

movie wall papers!! =P

JOSHUA ANG (TCS actor) =DDD

dasmond koh (TCS actor)

christophEr (SFC) =DDD

*Love God and love people<33
*CHRIST in the centre of my life.. not all about me..
*praise God to the ends of the world
*Learn DRIVING & the drummmms!!!!! & GUITAR
*Adidas shoes & Converse sneakers
*new slippers!! *new haversack bag!
*new clothes!
*sushi! >> love of my food life
*EXCEL in bowling!(forget it, a dream far away)
*GET INTO LOCAL UNI- Business/Psychology
*to cook & bake well
(in order not to forget them when the time actually comes, i shall pen them all down!=V=)after the A Level Examinations, i am goin to do all these! >>>>>

#MISSION TRIPS
#play pool!!
#Go overseas with my friends!! BACKPACKING-must
#Bake Bake Bake!! WHOOTS!
#go to SENTOSA!! volleyball! cycling!
#learn DANCING!! =DD
#learn water-skiing
#go and sleeover at different friends' houses! heh heh
#~~go BOWLING EVERYDAY!~~
#learn DRUMMING & electric guitar & classical guitar
#go to places to cam shoot all day long!
#go to wild wild wet with friens!!
#stayover at chalet!
#~~BBQ~~
#~~cycle at the beach!~~
#~~go ice-skating!~~
#volunteer at christian youth organisations - to play captain's ball/tchouk ball/softball
#invite people for ICE CREAM at serangoon gardens!
#try new things.. bungee jumping?? heehee
#volunteer at SPCA/children's home

i admit i AM ambitious, but it starts with planning and aspirations to move on to GREAT things right.. hahas.. success is waiting.. cheesy ain't it.. =DDD

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

BLESSED 2012
2011 to remember:

Worked at PwC
AFRICA, MOZAMBIGUE
FAMINE CAMP
KUNMING, CHINA
EUSOFF EXPOSURE CAMP
NUS
FASS ORIENTATION WEEK
EUSOFF ORIENTATION
EUSOFF HALL - DP drama, choir, Handball, Softball, SMC Sec, TM, Level Head, HPB & Eusoff drama.
USS
KALEO CAMP 2011
SEM 1 CONQUERED

TRUSTING God with my most minute details in my life has been one that has challenged me thru life. In 2011, there were times when I felt rather dry, merely going thru the motions of spending time reading my devotions but not actually feeling like I have even gone into a deep time of contemplation and conversation with God. Then I feel that my prayers were becoming more of a ritual rather than a actually engaging n my meaningful time of ADORATION, INTERCESSION & THANKSGIVING. What else can I do? Where's my FIRE, where's my passion to WANT to know Him more and OBEY Him more?

How can I grow DEEPER in my relationship with Christ & continue to discover the plans that God has for me.? What is His will for me and how do I walk in that direction. With regards to my commitments, my passion for missions, my future family, my future career, how do all these pieces form up to honour my Lord and Savior.

Thru my words, thru my actions and thru my thoughts, am I pleasing God?

STARTING 2012 WITH A BAM: HONG KONG TRIP!!!!! :D

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sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
10:15 PM

I MISS AFRICA

I MISS THE VILLAGE LIFE

I MISS THE FOOD THERE

I MISS THE CHILDREN THERE

I MISS WAKING UP AT 6AM AND SLEEPING AT 9PM

I MISS COOKING THE MEALS WE EAT

I MISS WAKING UP TO THE COOL SURROUNDINGS

I MISS NETANYA AND SAMARA

I MISS SINGING WITH THE CHILDREN

I MISS ROAMING THE GARDEN FULL OF FRUITS AND VEGETABLES

I MISS TAKING OUT THE JUICE AT MEAL TIMES AND SETTING THE TABLE

I MISS THE TIME DIFFERENCE

I MISS BEING OUT OF REALITY

I MISS NOT BEING IN SINGAPORE

I MISS THE CREEPY CRAWLIES AS MUCH AS I CRINGE IN CLOSE PROXIMITY WITH THEM

I MISS THE TRAMPOLINE

I MISS THE SUN SET

I MISS THE BEAUTIFUL VIEW OF MOUNTAINS AND VALLEYS

I MISS THE PRETTY FLOWERS THERE

I MISS SNACK TIMES

I MISS COOKING OMELETTE FOR BREAKFAST

I MISS THE CHICKENS AND THE KITTENS

I MISS BRIDGE TIMES

I MISS SETTLERS OF THE CATAN & INGENIOUS MOMENTS

I MISS VILLAGE RIDES

I MISS MAKING SHEPHERD'S PIE

I MISS THE HOT AND SUNNY AFTERNOONS THERE

I MISS THE SETTING OF QUIET TIME

I MISS BEING FAR FROM HOME

I MISS THE DRY AND TASTELESS CORN THERE

I MISS PLANTING BEANS AND DIGGING FURROWS

I MISS WEARING A SARONG AS MUCH AS I FOUND IT AN INCONVENIENCE AND SOMETIMES DREAD

I MISS THE SMILES OF ORLANDO, OF AMISTAVA, OF THE LITTLE GIRLS AND THE LITTLE BOYS AND THEIR SWEET SWEET SMILES

I MISS THEM REPEATING AFTER ME - ALL MY NONSENSE

I MISS DUAY DIGOYO DILUNGO YALA

I MISS DUAY UMBO LUBULA MEHNO

I MISS DUAY MAWIWI MEHRRO VAKAMUA

I MISS THE AWKWARD ARJIMUISHOWUDIs and ARINDILE WUDIs ...

and the list goes on and on

and i know this is the same feeling of immense feeling of loss and missinng like every other trip but i can't help it

I really thank God for the opportunity to be part of His mighty plan over at MOZAMBIQUE, AFRICA, even if it was just a short period of 2 weeks ish. He is working in the lives of people and these things will grow. Just as the people dig furrows to get ready to plant, then sow seeds to get ready to harvest.. then when the time is ripe, they reap the harvest, God is working and slowly but surely, the people's hearts will be ready.. And to be part of that big plan, i feel privileged :D I see the potential in each child, how shy, or how noisy, how innocent or how cheeky each child may be, I see the church leaders in them.. Though language may have been an initial barrier and susequent obstacle to further interaction, but i really enjoyed the times where the children sang along with me and taught me numbers from 1 to 10 and body parts in Yao :DDD Ung, Dosh, Thrash, Wathrru, Sigu, Sehshi, Sehteh, Oi-ey-tu, Norveh, Dehshi! and Head and shoulders knees and toes = Duay Digoyo Dilungo Yala and other variations like Duay Mawiwi Lubula Mehno = Head and ears and nose and teeth & Duay Umbo Mehrro Vakamua = Head and Hair and eyes and mouth! :P HAHA

A few songs that they taught me: (My favourite!)

Ar-jey-umuay-guendeh

Maniamuay

Ar-jey-umuay-guendeh

Maniamuay

Argungagunaburia

Roosh-golagajia-ula

Numbo-gutehga-udimbo

Numbo-gutehga-ha-oh-leh

:DDDD

Basically this song is about a grandfather asking the children to go to school, but they refuse.. they wanna catch birds! HAHA CUTE.

Arguangudi-ar-bang-duay ka

Arguangudi-ar-bang-duay

Arsi-Arsi Gumula

Arsi Gumula Lone-gee

& a song that Abel liked and learnt first:

Shina Maria Shina Maria

Kushiya Maria

Ar-eh Shina Maria

Shigorongorro, Shigorongorro..

Isaguna Isaguna Ars..

...

And when they have finished singing ABC with me, I'll say "Very good!" with thumbs up :) and when i mastered their song they lift 2 thumbsup and said "Muey-tu-bor" - Very Good in portuguese :P HAHA.. our little friendship. Children and me :D

Now that I'm back in reality, there are anxieties, there are worries, what will Uni life be like, will even get into any? haha but I need to trust in God even with the smallest details of my life..

I’m tired, I’m weary

Rejuvenated in Mozambique, in the village

Now it’s back to Singapore, time to flip the page

Drawing strength from God and Him alone

My Creator, Redeemer

Once like a parched bone,

But now refreshed because of Him – Jesus, My saviour

p.s for minor details, my pictures onFacebook track my every move :P

INCOMPLETE - TO BE COMPLETED ASAP :P wait up! :P

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sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
6:01 PM

let me tell you about how my life is some othertime. about my work some other time.when i'm in the mood

i'm sorry, all i can think of is to write, to spill. to ..be sad. haha. okay sorryfor the emo post :P erm. okay honestly, of all my 18 years on this earth, who are my friends? this word has caused me much heartbreak, as well as brought me much joy, and yet, caused so much hurt too. Who are they? who? have i wasted my life not having made friends who can be there for me when i need them? when i cry, will there ever be that friend to feel itfrom miles away? to embrace me when tears cannot stop flowing? To actually be interested about my life? i wanna be that friend. okay but maybe i fail. Am i just too idealistic? people i always thought were gonna be my friends for life, who have been my friends all my life, who have overcome challenges and recovered with me, yet now i feel this friendship slipping away. i dun wanna try anymore, cos the more i put in, the harder i fall. I am not_____ though it may seem to be.

i'm hurt.

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12:07 AM

the.time.is.here.the.time.is.now.it'stime.to. PARTYYYYY!!!!!!

"A strange time is approaching..." -WutheringHeights :P
Day 1 - after the LAST paper [lit paper 5], headed to the beach for Q.T! love the beach!! :) time of thanksgiving and entrusting :)))

to be con't

sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
2:07 PM

I just woke up
I'm soooo exhausted.
URGH the horrors of A levels.
I have no idea why it's affecting me so much, the stress, the pressure...

the night before:
Dreamt that i got back my results. In my dream i felt soo bad, but that feeling, if i think about it now, it's irrational. felt unsettled and uncomfortable. [made me feel like that the whole day until i watch Disney Channel ~ 16 Wishes :P] okay anyways, in my dreams, most of the results were good, in fact way past expectations, but i totally ignored those and focused on the really bad one-GP. sighh, wasn't that i failed or anything, just felt.. really awful. the nagging feeling won't go away.. then i was called to watch like movie from a library computer screen, like it was supposed to be a whole class thing, when i went, there were like only 2 ppl :O yeah, and we could EAT in the library. how weird, the library was certainly different from my school real one but i knew it was the school library. strange and STRANGE. and alot of other disjointed dreams that seemed to link. everything must be very messy in my confused brain.

the most recent(morning i guess):
I dreamt that i was somewhere, then Anjney called saying that lit consultation was NOW! iwas far from school. consultation supposed to start at 10am, it was 10:20am :O scary! i panicked. no one told me the change in date! was lit consultation today ALR? somehow i appeared at school in like the next moment, i wasn't even prepared for lit consultation. I imagined the worst consequences, but Miss K merely said, arrange another date, just me and her. that was kinda a relief but then, it's like there were snide undertones to it.i was like maybe it's a good thing that i meet her one to one, then i'll dare to ask more boldly instead of in a big group. Then my dream transitted [frankly i dunno which came first anyway] i was kinda like in a hotel/chalet-ish setting. Isaac did something wrong, i brought him away to wash his hands, down the aisle, can't really remember details..... faith and me, together with a big group, going for a swim down a long stretch of water, to reach a destination of some mountain top? then i was hald-decided on whether i should change to contacts(what if it dropped out! i'll only start wearing a new pair after As, now still one week early-kinda) so weird, As like not over i'm like on some holiday. grrr strangee like x100000..

I guess i'm just feeling all stressed up over... my results and last 2 exams? i'll trusted it all into God's hands, or so i thought. dreams reflect an inner, unconscious being within me, am i still feeling hopeless? yes, econs paper 1 indeed made me feel super demoralized like i dun think i can write any good econs essay alr. but still, many ppl found it tough, why am i still so affected and keep thinking of those negative thoughts, everything is in good hands. but i feel so scared. argh how come i could surrender my all to God during Os, why am i like that. These dreams are distressing nd definitely tiring. i need to chill, be calm and STUDY!.. it will certainly affect me doin my last 2 papers to the best of my abilities. it's so easy to tell ppl dun worry after they have faced with difficult papers(bell curve to the rescue!) but so difficult to convince myself. grrrr...

STRUGGLES. Help Dear Lord. Help me to TRUST in You...

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sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
10:17 AM

iT'S been like FOREVER? :P i'm here right now just cos' studying econs ain't attracting me enough. i'm here right now cos i miss ranting! 8 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM!!! the best day of 18 years of my life is about to begin! till i say HELLO to fun.JOY.LAUGHTER&everythingNICE.... MUG. AND the countdown starts now! This is what i've been thru and GLAD that the worst is over: -- General Paper [bleah paper 1 was so bland i'm so not optimistic for it] HISTORY!!! [NEVER again will i touch it. remind me if i forget like i did 2 years ago making the mistake of taking it up! :/] - important thing is I SURVIVEDDDD!!! MATHematics [Really enjoyed my time with you, GOODBYE] PLANS for my 7-MONTH HOLIDAY!! dEC - ♥kaleocamp♥prom♥ISRAELtrip♥CHRISTMAS♥mustard seed COR youth camp♥ JaN - ♥NEWyear♥SFCchalet♥worked at PwC♥SHOPPING♥learn driving♥SENTOSA♥...♥ FEb - ♥still working at PwC♥ChineseNewYear2011& all the PwC celebrations♥Valentine's♥stopped work - all the farewell treats & outings♥♥♥ mAr - ♥1-3mar youth conference thing in Johor :)♥♥africaMOZAMBIQUEtrip!♥♥ ApR - ♥♥africaMOZAMBIQUEtrip!♥♥ work at PwC♥ MaY - ♥work at PwC♥Go Forth Missions Conference - 26th-28thMay2011♥ jUNe - ♥CHURCH CAMP 2011♥30Hour Famine Camp(17th-18thJune)♥Worship Symposium♥ jULy - ♥♥♥♥ aUg - EFCs 50th Anniversary - Helping out

♥THINGS TO DO♥:

♥go out and catch up with ALL MY FRIENDS♥♥♥ sec school friends, ex-tuition friends, church friends,JC friends, random friends! ♥Learn water skiing! ♥volunteer @ organisations ♥learn how to cook what gong gong always used to cooked for CNY [mission-be-subtle-about-it] ♥i wanna babysit! :P ♥Spend more time with grandparents ♥WORK ♥sentosa ♥MOVIES!!! :DDDD *there'll be more, for now, back to the books! :P

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sweetest conVictions , L.O.V.E <3
10:02 AM

Have we ever looked at a child and become so filled with compassion? On the surface, they look so contented with all that they have in life, no hint of being burdened by the realities of this world which often bogs us down, impeding our way to true happiness. Well, that look of pureness and innocence in their eyes can easily melt our hearts. Their smiles fill us with a sense of warmth and fulfillment and yet, we do not see the things that these young children have to experience at home…

Some of these children have been through even more emotional hardship and heartbreaks at home. This Childcare Centre(prefer to remain un-named) has a mission to curb delinquency among disadvantaged young people and their families and to move them beyond their problems, they want to develop young people who respect the law, value education and seek to become responsible persons. It has been proven that the first 6 years of a child’s life are the most formative ones and with this Centre’s constant guiding and teaching, children are taught to how to integrate into society as good and law-abiding citizens who contribute to society as they live their life. These children may face a whole load of emotional baggage and burden that their parents carry and all these on impressionable children and they watch and learn the adults around them. Values get ingrained into these children and if they do not get the opportunity to learn right from wrong, they may very well be deprived of that chance to live their lives right. It is therefore pivotal for them to receive an education disregarding their financial status.

I believe that empathy comes through experience and many of us have never actually been through the hardships that these children have experienced so as much as we may try to, we never will comprehend. That is a hard reality to accept. It also results in a painful end to let go. Although we set out with the deep desire to serve the community, how much can we actually do? Sure, we can share the love and joy and bring a smile on their faces, but on a deeper level, are we able to determine a bright future for them? Have we done enough? “If they needed someone to hold them to feel safe in somebody’s arms, why can’t I do that? I want to let them feel secure, I want to protect them from the harshness of reality…” What is the point of Service Learning when all we can contribute is so seemingly insignificant? These were the resonating thoughts and questions etched in my heart even as we left.

Service Learning is always the time when I witness the deeply etched passion in 09A05. Each and every single one of us puts in our best effort, we do our very best, we set our hearts and minds hard at work, and we certainly have our hearts filled with compassion and love for these children. Such eagerness can be seen through the intensity and efforts that each one of us puts in. What strikes me the most is that when it came down to this, we were serious and yet, enjoying the moments that only last for that moment. These moments are short-lived, yet, we take every opportunity to do all that we can, we strive to bring joy into these children’s lives, each and every one of them, not wanting to leave any out, for they all deserve a meaningful and fulfilled childhood, all of them do.

Indeed, Service Learning 2010 has allowed many of us to reflect upon the things of our society and certainly brought about a much deeper desire to serve and i believe that our contribution to society will definitely not end here. Each of us will strive to do so much more, with our limited capabilities, we will each contribute a little to make Singapore a better place to live in, a better society for individuals to integrate into, despite their background.

By Evangeline Kwok :] 09A05

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8:41 PM